Lost Again

Lost, again

Don’t know what to do

Don’t know where to go

Don’t know where I belong

Don’t know what my purpose is

Turning 29 and I still don’t have a clue

About what I want to do, in life

Stagnant

I feel guilty and ashamed

A lot of the time

I feel like I’m doing something wrong

I feel like I’m not worthy or good enough

I’m not enough

I should know better

I should do better

I should be better

Why aren’t I better?

Am I even changing?

It feels like I’m not

Have I even changed?

It feels like I haven’t

The progress I was making

Am I still making it?

Because it sure doesn’t feel like it…

But this need to be perfect

Is hurting me inside

I am not proud; I am not happy

With myself, who I am and where I’m at

But how am I to feel any different

When I don’t feel good enough?

I just feel disappointed in myself, I guess…

I haven’t been achieving or succeeding

And it feels like I’m taking steps backwards

I’m not where I want to be

I’m never where I want to be

Lost

To be honest, I’m lost

I always have been

I always will be

Trying to find my place

In a world that seems so…

Distant; so far away

I’m different

I can’t relate

I isolate

Dissociate

I’m dis

Connected

And it hurts

If I’m not alone

Why do I feel so lonely?

If I’m not alone

Will you come find me?

I’m searching for connection

Lost; just waiting to be found…

Lost and Confused

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Why Me?

I didn’t ask to be birthed

To be put here on Earth

God, would you help me?

Try to understand

Your divine plan

Because I’m lost

And I’m broken

And I’m hurting

So much

Held Hostage

Get me out of this house

Get me out of this room

Get me out of this bed

Get me out of my head

Stop these habits of mine

Over-thinking

Over-analyzing

Over-criticizing

Over-feeling

Overwhelming

No escaping

This maze

I am trapped in

Lost

Exhaust-ed

Criss-crossed and 

Get me out of here

I cannot leave

I cannot hear 

I cannot see

I cannot breathe

I am a prisoner

Please set me free

Lost/Broken

I am lost. I am broken. I am lost because I am broken, and I am broken because I am lost. My purpose – what is it? I’ve lost it. Angel, won’t you take me home to where I belong, in your arms? The place in which I find peace, love and joyfulness; the place I feel whole.

Help

Help

I am calling out to you

Help

What am I to do?

Help 

Can you see me?

Help

Can you hear me?

Help

Where are you?

Help

Is that you?

Help

I am feeling blue

Help

I need a hand

Help

Me understand

Help

Hold me tight

Help

Show me the light

Help

Guide me through

Help

I need you